yesterday was dramafest... was really good! worth the time and the money... for more details, visit cm's blog on the bottom right... anyway. was so glad med fac took home the top honours... felt their play was really good. i loved it! kudos to emilia and yihan for their nice acting too... oh, and simin for her great directing and acting... :P

ok... today... not a fab day... not at all. had U20s competition today... i guess i did fairly well for the round robin... won 4 lost 2... was the 2nd best from our school... (after nick)... was ranked 13th of 39 after tt... so was quite happy. even during the round robin however, i made some bad mistakes, and was quite dismayed when i had lost 2 matches in a row... thankfully i did pull myself together to get through quite well.

however, direct elimination was a totally different story. think i've learnt a lot from it. i was playing quite a high risk game tt got me up 5-3, and later it went to 7-7. i was supposed to win this match being ranked higher... so naturally, had some confidence. but then, at 7-7, that guy did some great moves, and got the lead... and before i knew it, it was 12-8. at tt point in time, the alarms should've been sounding in my head, and i should've been doing things differently. but no, i thought i would still win, and just went on, not picking up my game and focus. heck, till it was 14-8, match point, then i said, hey, time to concentrate. too late, simultaneous hit, 15-9, match over. it was over in less than 3 mins, the time pple take for a 5 pt match. wth... sure, i was doing well at first, but then i just let my standard drop... and i didn't bother to pick it up. guess my arrogance killed me this time. maybe i should've concentrated more, and respect my opponent more. its good tt i thought tt i could still win, but i guess at the same time, be more wary and focus. sighs... felt like shit. i just let it escape my grasp.

and then the next piece of news i found out... my interview with the IBO committee was a failure. well, i went it not too serious once again. and i guess i didn't put up the right image... should've took it more seriously. was never tt keen to join - mugging lots for a competition is not my cup of tea, and i did tell them tt. guess they didn't like what they heard or saw... dunno why i was actually upset about it, guess it must have been the previous lost, and i was hoping for something to redeem me, and instead got let down again... so yeah...

anyway, team event next week. think its important for me to be more focused from now on, in whatever i do. so i shall be. u wun see the unmotivated and unfocused me anytime soon... at least not for things i wanna work for.